re-invention

30Mar07

I am bored of myself. I have a weird need to ‘re-invent’ myself every few months… haha. so, yet again another bloggy break. I’m sorry, I’m sure I’m driving everyone crazy. I will be back at some point, and this blog will be more exciting. But for now, I need time to think through some things, and make a few plans.

So, this blog is not dead… just sleeping. Not for very long, hopefully within two weeks. I will still check e-mail, and comment on blogs so no worries there. I won’t fall off the face of the planet completely. If you want to talk to me/ask a questions/etc. send me an e-mail at squarepegetsy[at]gmail.com
I don’t have a personal e-mail address, I don’t see the point. lol


Spring plans

25Mar07

Oops, I abandoned my blog. I’m working on being a regular, steady blogger but as you could probably tell it isn’t really working. Also, work is just barely starting to slow down, and…. I finally have ideas on what to make. hooray. lol.

Not much has been finished, but quite a lot has been sketched, cut, pinned, and ready to go. This summer will be the season of dresses. I made quite a few last summer again – I have a feeling my closet is going to explode from all of the dresses stuffed into it. Dresses are nice becuase they can either be dressy (rare for me), or made more interesting with messy hairstyles, crazy makeup, fun shoes, etc.
I also haven’t knit anything for about two months. It makes me sad, but money to buy 6 or so skeins of hemp yarn is a little tiny bit hard to scrape together =D Anyway, more posting is coming soon. Interesting posts as well – this one is a little silly and boring.


break

14Mar07

Work is yet again extremely busy, and I am far too tired and busy to post. So, this week will be yet another short blog break. I hate doing this, but I am so busy and stressed I can’t add blogging to my daily schedule =D


Knit 1 tunic

01Mar07

I have not knit anything ‘substabtial’ for far too long. I mean, I knit a headband for Sarah’s dreadies, but I want to make something big and frustating and amazing. hehe.
Anyway, I am thinking of making this:

The tunic at the end. I presonally look awful in orange, so I am thinking of doing gray/black stripes (surprise, eh?) Also, that neck is kind of blah. I am tihnking of maybe a crew style neck- they look bets on me. Also, I am short enough for it to be a dress =D
Now that I look closer, the scarf on the left is pretty darn cute as well… hmm, maybe I’ll make one for spring in a super bright color scheme.
(both patterns are from Knit 1 magazine)

In other news, I have my license… barely. To pass, you cannot get any more than -20 points… I got -19. Oops. I don’t really like driving, so nothing to be worried about.

Hm, I’m listening to silly ‘hardcore’ music. Reminds me of myself about a year ago. Good god was I obsessed… I fancied myself to be hardcore/emo/scene. That was one of the more interesting stages. It was kind of fun though, I of course stopped doing it as soon as it was ‘popular’. As if it wasn’t already. Who am I kidding? lol.


im over it.

28Feb07

Thank you for all of your suggestions, but most of all to Nush for giving me that kick I needed.
While I may not have all of my ideas back, I am going to work at it. I will make it happen. I may have found my inspiration… while it may not make everything perfect- certainly not easy- for this, I will do everything possible to try again.
I tend to be a very ’emotional’ person. Anything that happens will affect me five times more strongly than the average person. This is why, when I am happy I am ecstatic, but when something sad happens I can’t handle it. I may seem to be alright, and it may seem like I cna handle it, but every feeling is still inside. The point of all this is to say that by not painting, photogrpahing, writing, sewing, designing, whatever, all of this extreme emotion stays inside. I have never been good at articulating how I feel in words*, I only express what is really inside through what I make. The real me comes out in the project. My problem began when I tried to fit what I was making into a mold. The mold of what was cool or popular or whatever. It wasn’t me. Every little project was just the expression of another idea. Not my own, only what the masses think. I tried to be trendy, but only made things worse.
I still haven’t found exactly what is me, but I now have that one thing that can push me through. That one idea that hopefully will foster thousands more. It will certainly be slow going at first- each deisgn will be painstaking and frustratin- but to get out of this rut, I do have to do some work. I got into it, now I have to get out.
There may not be many posts for a while. It may take a while to find whatever it is I am looking for, but someday… I may post tomorrow, I may not. At some point posting will be far more regular, but for now, a lot of things are going to have to be re-learned.

*You probably already noticed this. I can write moderately well, but articulating myself through speech has always been a constant struggle. This blog is more of a conversation/statement for me, so it is yet another thing I need to re-learn =D

In other news, we have recieved many lovely offers to make skirts for Sewing Seeds. All donations are appreciated, and we love any help! Thank you so much to all who contributed! When all the skirts are finished, we will hopefully have some picturs to share. Information on donating something for the boys at the orphanage will come later on. We are still thinking on that one.


oh snap

23Feb07

You know that uninspiration that I was talking about a month of two ago… it hasn’t ended. I don’t know what is up. I can’t find ‘it’ anywhere – the look, the project, the colors, the IDEA. I don’t have much time to create, but whenever I find a small amount of time, I feel so stuck. The usual pick-me-up’s like cooking, looking up art or listening to music, are not helping.
I have so much in my head, but none of it will translate into something. A blank sheet of paper terrifies me, but when I try to make it something nice, I just end up either staring at it for an hour or making a mess and getting angry. Fabric seems like a huge expanse of frustration and anger. I don’t know what is going on.
Please give me your most inspiring, creative, fantastic sites/artists/songs/whatever. I really, really have to get out of this rut or I don’t know what I m going to do =(


21Feb07

Just a little WIP-ness. There is a craft fair coming up in May, and I am going to be making handbags, makeup totes, and a ‘surprise’. I am hoping to get about 25-35 bags made, so I may need a little kick in the pants every once in a while =)
Here are some of the fabrics I am using:


-Both are Alexander Henry. They both are a little more girly than I would normally choose, but I am trying to get a wide variety of fabrics. If I made things would buy… we all know what would happen.
My personal favorite:

Nice and 80’s-tacky, eh?

I mentioned in a previous post about my fantastic thrift store find. I finally took a picture of it. They aren’t the best- the lighting has been off lately- but isn’t it darling???

Three full yards of medium/heavy weight twill, for only $4.00. Oh how I love thrifting.